I was sitting thinking of our future
and of how friendship had overcome
so many nights bloated with pain.
I was sitting in the room that looked
out on to a garden and a stillness filled
me , bitterness drifted from me,
I was as near paradise as I am likely
to get again.
I was sitting thinking about chaos
we had caused in one another and
was amazed we had survived it.
I was thinking about our future
and of what we would do together.
and where we go and of how when
night came burying me bit by bit,
and you entered the room, trembling,
solemn-faced, on time for onc4.
